dum di dummm di DUMM..

been SOOOME time eh.
losing interest AGAIN. haha, we'll see how long more la.

anyways, i am honestly beginning to wonder why i even chose to
go to a JC. i am beginning to think, polytechnic would have been a
far more wise a choice compared to this. maybe i am just too lazy...
ok not MAYBE, i AM too lazy for this. atleast in polytechnic i would have
doing something i WANT to do - mass comm, business or smth.
oh well, no use complaining now ehh, abit tooo LATE anyways.

schoool 'OFFICIALLY' ended about a week ago. graduation ceremony was sucha a drag.
kinda amusing too actually. some band was called down to perform. QUITE sad la..
cos they weren't THAT good. the girl could sing thoughh. tolerable BUT unnecessary.
but yeahh, no tears, no crying, no goodbye HUGS. i mean, we ARE gonna be seeing each other
after this still right?

TWOOO years.
really SHORT compared to what 730.5 days would seem like.
secondary school life was TOTALLY different. the two extra years i suppose made all
difference. there was SO much.. not acadamic wise, that was kinda MINIMAL in my
school. LOL studies were RARELY the focus. back then we could afford that.
was nice.. lol fun Fun loadsa FUN.

hmmm yeah i am done reminiscing.
deepavali is coming up. smack in the MIDDLE of exams. like ALWAYS. lol
my parents are kinda celebrating it big this year. guess cos it's been sometime since
we last celebrated. it's nice.. the spirit of celebration that is kinda overflowing in my house. lol
my ROOM is FLAMINGO RED. kinda SCARY.. but i like it. i picked the colour thinking
it was gonna be something else. but yeahh.. turnedd out otherwise. still its NICE. i think.. lol
the hall is sky blue, and the other rooms are magnolia. kinda COLOURFUL eh. hehe

what else what else?
i dunno. feel real empty depsite all that is physically going on around me these days.

empty? that's not the word.. but yeahh ya know what i mean..
EMPTY. somewhat..

kinda lost, lonely, battered and yeahh WEIRD. haha
nope i am not wallowing in self pity but yeahh feel like talking about it..
not to anyone.. to myself..
you know.. sometimes you feel like something is BUGGING you. your heart feels
kinda HEAVY. yeahh something like that. just not SOMETIMES.
but sort of ALL the TIME. like something is amiss.
i think i know what it is.
sort of atleast and i think thats what's bugging me even more. like why THAT?
i mean..

SUGU NEVER DOES THIS.

ponder about things that are not WORTH
pondering about cos its simply not within my control and yeah..
but noww...
WHYY?


hmmmmm....