dum di dummm di DUMM..

been SOOOME time eh.
losing interest AGAIN. haha, we'll see how long more la.

anyways, i am honestly beginning to wonder why i even chose to
go to a JC. i am beginning to think, polytechnic would have been a
far more wise a choice compared to this. maybe i am just too lazy...
ok not MAYBE, i AM too lazy for this. atleast in polytechnic i would have
doing something i WANT to do - mass comm, business or smth.
oh well, no use complaining now ehh, abit tooo LATE anyways.

schoool 'OFFICIALLY' ended about a week ago. graduation ceremony was sucha a drag.
kinda amusing too actually. some band was called down to perform. QUITE sad la..
cos they weren't THAT good. the girl could sing thoughh. tolerable BUT unnecessary.
but yeahh, no tears, no crying, no goodbye HUGS. i mean, we ARE gonna be seeing each other
after this still right?

TWOOO years.
really SHORT compared to what 730.5 days would seem like.
secondary school life was TOTALLY different. the two extra years i suppose made all
difference. there was SO much.. not acadamic wise, that was kinda MINIMAL in my
school. LOL studies were RARELY the focus. back then we could afford that.
was nice.. lol fun Fun loadsa FUN.

hmmm yeah i am done reminiscing.
deepavali is coming up. smack in the MIDDLE of exams. like ALWAYS. lol
my parents are kinda celebrating it big this year. guess cos it's been sometime since
we last celebrated. it's nice.. the spirit of celebration that is kinda overflowing in my house. lol
my ROOM is FLAMINGO RED. kinda SCARY.. but i like it. i picked the colour thinking
it was gonna be something else. but yeahh.. turnedd out otherwise. still its NICE. i think.. lol
the hall is sky blue, and the other rooms are magnolia. kinda COLOURFUL eh. hehe

what else what else?
i dunno. feel real empty depsite all that is physically going on around me these days.

empty? that's not the word.. but yeahh ya know what i mean..
EMPTY. somewhat..

kinda lost, lonely, battered and yeahh WEIRD. haha
nope i am not wallowing in self pity but yeahh feel like talking about it..
not to anyone.. to myself..
you know.. sometimes you feel like something is BUGGING you. your heart feels
kinda HEAVY. yeahh something like that. just not SOMETIMES.
but sort of ALL the TIME. like something is amiss.
i think i know what it is.
sort of atleast and i think thats what's bugging me even more. like why THAT?
i mean..

SUGU NEVER DOES THIS.

ponder about things that are not WORTH
pondering about cos its simply not within my control and yeah..
but noww...
WHYY?


hmmmmm....

FinnaallY..

phew!
its been long.
and i still have not got tired of blogging.
in fact..
this is my FOURTH POST! haha that is cause to celebrate for me now!

anyways..
so what has been going on now??
prelims. err yeah i do not think i wanna dwell into that.
i am not hoping for much. just to pass everything, really.
that would be somewhat satisfying. sigh lets hope so..
but i am pleased with my GP. finally some sorta improvement.
i mean we have been doing it for almost 12 years noww..
english.. grrr and yet is so goddamn difficult to SCORE la.


anyways, random thoughts but my darling punitha has FINALLY decided to
start using MSN. so much easier to talk to her now.. so hard to catch her free..
council vice-pres all.. so proud of her..
she inspires me i swear..
all that love she has to offer every single living thing she encounters in her life.
how often do we meet such angels like that.
gosh punitha, I LOVE YOU!
yay!


28 days left for A levels.
after which i amm gonna NASLOONIZE myself..
gosh i cannot wait.
that is my sole motivation right now..
everytime i dont feel like looking at my books. i think of my beloved and
tell myself less than 2 months to go!

A levels are the hardest i guess..
education system in singapore is like a pressure cooker man.
(not that it has got any profound effect on me cos i am just too lazy)

and (haha) as amitha puts it,
the local education system makes people MYOPIC.
lol.
well good thing is, she doesnt look bad with spectacles.
pretty nice actually.


what else is there?
vasantham star!
haha.
my lord EBBI is such an ENTERTAINING dude.
sadly his vocal capabilities are kinda minimal.
but stilL!
his performance is so good it kinda overshadows his flaws.
yeahh.
i think he wld make a GOOOD vasantham star.
better then our jagged teeth 'HERO' who
ABSOLUTELY CANNOT SING.
gosh.
my FATHER thinks he is GOOD.
old man is deaf i swear!
oh and BLIND!
(and yes i am ENTITLED TO MY OPINION)

speaking of my daddy..
he has become a BALDY!
haha finally! i kinda coaxed him into it
*pats herself for a job well done*
it was about time i swear.
everything was dropping anyways.
atleast now.
he looks kinda cool.. looks TEN YEARS YOUNGER
he looks like gandhi actually..
but yeah.. next thing we need to do to him..
is fix a goatie..
wooohoo!
my daddy is cool man.
and i LOVE HIM!.
yup

ok that's enough for noww..

out!

malaysia truly asia. =)

it was a pleasing, quiet and wonderful weekend.
lazing under the sun
by the pool,
cosying up on the couch
sitting through movie marathons,
not forgetting FINGERLICKING good food.
oh and yes.. some studying done.

i am glad i went to malaysia with my motormouth mother,
whiney sister and my kanchiong spider daddy.
my aunt was SO GLAD to see me, she actually CRIED.
i never thought anyone would be so happy to see ME!
oh well, she was definitely worth the 3 hour trip.
thanks to a vehicle breakdown and the wonderful jam we were stuck in
not forgetting...
thanks to the ever efficient immigration officers who take painfully
long to clear passports.
grrr..
security they call it.

AND i certainly hope she'll get well soon. it was sort of upsetting
to see her in so much pain.
and the doctors have yet to diagnose her. gosh.
its been more than a week already!

and i thought medical technology has advanced TREMENDOUSLY.
whatever it is.. i certainly hope she gets proper treatment SOON.
*oof*

anyways now that i have wasted more than 10 hours doing NOTHING.
i am gonna do more the rest of the week to catch up.
right.
i am going to.
i HAVE to. like now.
i WILL. now.
yup. NOW.

ok.
OUT!

whiney.

back.
surprisingly i still remember that i
had created a blog cos the previous times, i kind
of forgot all about it the next day itself. anyways, i still
havent got any 'general' issue, vaguely interesting, to share so i am
going to devote this post to whining..


things have become such a technical routine right now.
i mean i know that it is part of the PROCESS but still, it offers
no motivation or encouragement. and it doesnt really help when
you're unnecessarily lugging EXCESS emotional baggage around.
i wish i had a choice. actually nope. i KNOW i do have a CHOICE
but for some bizarre ridiculous reason it's just hard to throw aside.
and i think its pretty pointless for me to go around whining to the whole
world about it. i mean at the end of day it is my battle. and only I can do
something about it. yup. only I can. grrr..

well thankfully it doesnt seem to have that detrimental an effect upon
the larger scheme of things but even so... i suppose anyone could do
WITHOUT all of this. but then again, as the QUEEN of SCREW-UPS, not so
surprising that i land myself in what i
land myself in. but its not ENTIRELY my fault.. right?? LOL.

*i love the way i exercise self-pity.*

not just that.. based on all these reflections i have just come to realise that..
i am a bad BAD friend.
probably BAD DAUGHTER
apparently BAD GIRLFRIEND
possibly a BAD STUDENT.
and the list just goes on.
GOSH.
grrr
goddammit. it's orite.. nothing is beyond repair.
it's bad when it could be WORST. so yes some hope left!.

and whining has finally gotten to me.. i sound like an annoying
old woman. oh well, i am pretty darn SURE that there are fellow
beings who share similar sentiments at the current moment.
so i'll seek consolation in that. and yes to you fellow beings!
you're NOT ALONE. lol ok i think i am SLEEPY. but NOPE it's
time for TAGANOMICS. ahh what could be more refreshing than math
at this hour. i know.. COFFEE and COLDPLAY.
PERFECT.

till another (hopefully not as boring) post,
OUT!

vhat doo youu dink yabout dis?

so i am sitting here wondering what on earth i am doing here,
creating a blog when i am suppose to be mugging my time away
since there are ONLY 64 days left for the A's. well i suppose i've had
too much taganomics. if you're wondering what taganomics is
it just means that ya'll have not been blessed by my beloved math tutor..

MRS. TAG.
i swear she does it like no other. The most dedicated i've seen.
yes mrs tag, WE LOVE MATH. the depressing bit is that i learned
to love it abit too late. cos i lost my 'job' as math rep. i wasnt up to it.
mrs tag has got HIGH expectations ya see. you gotta be REAAAL good or
you're gone. i begged her to give me another chance. but nah-uh she wldnt budge.
damn i say.

now that i am done reflecting over my failure as a math student cum rep.

well, i have created 4 blogs so far. all got deleted cos blogging aint
really my thing. well i chose to try again. see if it works this time round.
(yah right).

if you're wondering why i named it what do you think about this here goes.

(a) i didn't know what to name my blog. as i was thinking this came to my mind

(i) nope i did not invent it
(ii) rishik and amitha did.
(iii) and dont ask WHY cos its a long complex story.

(b) i think rambling about my oh-so-exciting life would just bore you and myself
in the proces so i thought it would make far more sense to talk about issues that are
more general and maybe CONTROVERSIAL. and so you can tell me..
'what (d0) you think about this?'

but yeah right now i should head back to taclking more taganomics.
i'll see you at the next post with something more interesting and perhaps
contentious to talk about..

out!